The truth about being a Mommy

I absolutely love being a Mommy! I wish it was my only job, but unfortunately it is not. Those of you that get to be full time Mamas...well kudos you lucky bitches! Right now I'm a pseudo stay at home Mama because I work from home. So during the day dishes can get washed (thanks Matt), clothes can be washed and put away, occasionally a vacuum can be run and toilets be cleaned. Since Matt and I both work from home we currently keep Noah with us and its been working out great since he sleeps A LOT and work has been very slow. I think it may make our lives a little more chaotic and stressful at times trying to find a work/life/baby balance. But I love getting to see him all day. On our big meeting days, Matt's mom has helped us out by coming to stay with Noah for a few hours. With winter in full swing, I have ZERO motivation to go into the office, much less I hate having to leave my baby for a second. So she normally keeps him downstairs and we stay upstairs and take our calls. It works. However, Noah is quickly approaching needing more attention all the time so we are in the process of looking for a Nanny to come a few days of the week to start and keep him at our house and hopefully teach him Spanish! :) If you haven't noticed being a Mommy makes my thoughts more scattered and jumbled than normal. Back to the point of this post. He is a great baby, loves to snuggle and rarely cries unless he is super tired and needs a nap or thinks he is a starving child from Africa and needs food STAT. No matter how many times you hear it from someone else babies change your lives in a MAJOR way. Matt and I are an amazing team and I think that's why adding Noah to the mix hasn't been so difficult. We both have our strengths and we both share the responsibility, but its still hard. Even now Noah is not yet sleeping through the night, so we are running on the least amount of sleep that either of us have had to survive on since college the only difference being this is not by choice. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have Matt. When I was getting on the brink of threatening to throw my son out the window because he nursed at 1, 2, 3, 4 and then at 5 one night (this was months ago BTW), Matt step in and relieved me and let me sleep until 9 am. :) But I have also done my fair share of rescuing, sometimes Noah just needs his Mama and that makes me feel good that someone so little and helpless needs me so much! But all in all I'm thankful my husband wants to be involved, no NEEDS to be involved. Matt wants that relationship with Noah, he wants to be a great Daddy and he is. He is amazing. I'm just thankful I'm not married to some selfish ass that views children as being the mother's sole responsibility. Now before I was a Mama I would see all these crazy ass ladies on TV that did horrible things to their kids and I would think "how in the hell could you do that?" Now I understand. Being a parent is hard, but not having a support system to rescue you could push you to do the unthinkable. And I have an amazing husband and a wonderful support system of family and friends. Even with all of this amazing help/support there are times I am pushed to my breaking point from general life stress, work stress, sleep deprivation, not having a free minute to shower and then you add to the mix a screaming baby at 3 in the morning. There are times it gets to you so I'm not about to pretend life with a baby is all sunshine and roses, and anyone that does is a balled face liar! But it is worth it, every bit of it :) I love that little boy more than I ever imagined I could love anyone :) But it is not always easy, but it is always worth it :)